Back to my blogging roots,

I'm sure this isn't news to many of you, but it seems to me that just about anyone can be a blogger these days. Now, that's great, and I'm definitely not against it! but so many sites I've seen being called "great blogs" just baffle me when I go to check them out myself. The whole reason I started blogging (and each lady has her own) was to keep a journal. I remember my very first post ever, as I was in Jackson, MI at Bible school and I wanted to be able to keep track of what God was teaching me (and I typed much faster than I wrote; still do). Then, when I had to leave school due to health issues and I was living at home for seven months not attending school or working, I started finding more blogs I liked and began to change the look of my blog a little bit more. Today, nearly five years later, I struggle often to remember what my goal is as a blogger because I seem to be influenced by the shallow-ness that blogging has become. It's so fun to take outfit pictures and enter giveaways, but I can't let that become what I'm about because in all actuality, it's really not what I'm about. I'm about writing the deep down tough things, the hard things, saying the words nobody can bear to whisper, being true and honest because I believe hardcore that that is my calling as a blogger. And I need to get back to my roots: journaling so I can remember these amazing days and moments.


This weekend was one of them.
The things God has been doing in my husband are amazing, encouraging, beautiful, and nearly indescribable. To watch Dan be in the Word each and every single day, to be sharing his faith with so many with no holds bar, to be so on fire; it is just a huge gift and a blessing to get to be married to this man. He is truly leading me in a way I had no idea to expect (but had always wanted) and I am so humbled to get to be so close to him! He spoiled me this weekend, and especially last night, when he gave me a neck rub and foot massage for absolutely no reason other than to "pamper me" he said. Thank You God!

Another big thing that's been going on is the biggest faith struggle I've ever had in my entire life. It had been a few weeks coming but last week it officially hit me like a ton of bricks and I just felt so abandoned and passed over by God; I felt so far down in a deep dark valley and knew I had no way to get out on my own. So, the Lord graciously used my parents to lead me to some awesome passages in the Bible which really encouraged my heart, and slowly but surely, I'm trusting the Lord again, even though I feel a bit distanced from Him still.

And an update on my no-sugar diet: today is officially one whole week! I can't believe it, because I never dreamed I would be able to give up such an addicting thing. Anyway, this week I'll be started to eat much more Paleo, as I picked up some cage-free organic eggs, a ton of veggies, organic beef, and cage-free organic chicken! Excited to be on week 2 of this journey!