Where to begin? First, I once again apologize for my silence. Even though I know you all understand and are so unbelievably gracious and loving, I still feel an obligation to my beautiful blog family. I also feel a slight embarrassment blogging today because I desperately need you, and I don't want y'all to feel like I'm using you - only blogging when I'm in need... but really, it's all I have the energy and emotional capacity to give to you right now. Every day is simply about surviving, and I'm barely even doing that very well.
Anyway - this is of course where you come in. The details are explained here, but a short summary if you don't feel like clicking till you have a better idea of where I'm sending you: I'm in desperate need of financial assistance. I know I asked for help back in January for an airplane ticket to fly back to Pennsylvania to visit with my parents before they headed back to China, but compared to now, that truly was so unimportant. I don't mean that in a rude way, I just mean - it seems so selfish compared to what I'm asking for today.
You see, my unemployment assistance was cut off after the alotted 26 weeks which was the end of July. Along with that, I am physically incapable of getting and keeping a job as my fibromyalgia has never been worse (the vicious cycle of stress --> more pain --> more stress --> more pain, etc.), I've been having weekly migraines since May, and nausea is always close at hand. Because of my recent diagnosis of manic depression (also in May), I'm going to therapy twice a week (which I absolutely LOVE and is the best thing to ever happen to me) but that of course costs money, and is about 20 miles north which incidentally takes gas, and in order to survive I need groceries = more money.
Because of my health, I have applied for disability, but my evaluation appointment isn't until next month, and I currently have less than $100 to my name. I have also recently qualified for California's welfare health insurance program, as well as food stamps, but have yet to actually receive the aid.
Anyway, I guess that's enough information for now. Any amount you can give will mean more than you could possibly ever truly imagine. Oh! I've completely exhausted any and all help I can receive from any other avenue, so please know I'm not using your money to supplement excess wants, etc. I have rent due this week, as well as my car insurance, utilities, and I need to refill my gas tank in order to get to my doctors appointments.
If you have any more questions or just want more details, please feel free to private message me, email me, or comment on this post and I'll email you back.
I can't wait till this awful, frustrating, painful season of survival and holding on by the skin of my teeth is over. I can't wait to wake up in the morning without the stress and anxiety so heavy in my chest. I can't wait to be able to breathe again.
Here's the link one more time, click here.